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A Little More Than Amazing ♥
vickytoria chan ♥.a.k.a nutball/reindeer. .24th april. .sexy seventeen. .taurus. . . . .choir`alto 1.SL.(2007-2008) .plmc. .child of God. . .I'm alittle more than amazing. Loves ♥
my everlastinq.God.my fun-loving.church. my dearest and most treasured.family & friends. my 24/7 with me.handphone. my always rawking.computer. sweet-nice-cold.ice-cream. SOMEthing nutty.nuts. passion.singing. the voices within.choir. the study of books.literature. crazy scribbles.drawing & doodling. funny funny.jokes. a girl's favourite pastime.shopping. out in the sun having fun.volleyball & captain's ball. cuddly love.cow pillow. the HOT one.ZERO. the best to read.manga. fetish for.bananas. playing.pool. Aspirations ♥
to be at least.1.6m tall. more.savings & money. more.clothes. photo.shop. either.ds or psp. travel.around the world. learn.japanese and french. expensive.shopping sprees. my own minature.library. be less bored. Flying Kisses ♥
Talk to me, The ULTIMATE ONE. ♥
Love Them ♥
.aaron..amanda wong.MUNKY. .angelika. .angelyn. .angie. .audrey. .cassandra. .celestia. .chelsea. .cheryl. .cleo.SANTA. .constance. .debbish. .dewaine. .desiree lee. .dwight.WIFE. .elizabeth. .esther. .faith. .fiona. .grace. .hema. .isaac. .jia yu. .jamin. .jane. .janella. .joel.DEVIANTART. .jolene. .jonathan. .joscelyn. .joshua. .joy. .jowell. "AWESOME" .juanita. .jun yang. .karin. .kenneth. .leroy. .marcus. .marieta. .mark. .mavis. .melissa. .m&m warriors. .natalie. .nicole. .olivia.FURBALL. .poh hun. .rachel. .randi. .randy. .ray. .sac voices. .sara. .shu min. .teresa. .teri. .tracy. .vanessa. .veronica. .yeung wing.SEXY MASTER. Archives ♥
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IN THE SILENCE. Speak. Go on, speak. Open and shu... UNDERSTANDING IS AN UNDERSTATEMENT, NOT.Tangled in... HEARTSTRINGS. Marionettes, puppets without a heart... ZERO (FIRST LOVE)+REN TSUGARA (NEW FOUND LOVE) =ME... WHY THEM, WHY ME?1. Why can't they be more sensiti... DANCING WITH THE ANGEL"Sweet Cherub,Please dance w... I WAS BORED (:me & Su JanBLURRY. Chelsea and Ime &... Can I Have This Dance?right here, you take a chanc... Veronica tagged me to do the quiz so I'm gonna do ... Day And Night.Fluttering, the butterfly sits on hi... Credits ♥
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//Wednesday, December 10, 2008 5:57 PM
 TRAPPED IN THIS CRAZY WORLD. Okay people, finally blogging as me for now. Not as some she, they, "I", you, we or he? Haven't been getting along with life easily at the moment. I think I'm a tad bit paranoid. Who am I kidding, I'm paranoid to the rating of 10/10. Gosh. There's so many things to get concerned about CURRENTLY, I suppose? Well, here goes the list. 1. O Level Results. Let's see. I'm having doubts in getting at least 13 points for admission into polytechnic. (Been praying ultra hard daily for 13 points maximum.) Okay so lets say things don't turn out the way I want them to. If I apply for design... Oh boy, I've got no idea what I'm getting myself into. Portfolio need to be prepared plus interview. This is not good for me cause doing portfolios would clash with my lazy personality. Okay, so it isn't a good excuse but if I'm lazy, I'm lazy. What more can anyone say? Even though I do enjoy art but I enjoy it at my own pace. Oh wells guess I have to "suffer" a little more if that does happen, right? 2. Family. Alright before you get any weird ideas on me having family issues... Please pause your little mind theatre. Basically, I am not as close as most people think I am with family. Not that I want to distant myself away from my parents and fellow brother but like most teenagers, clicking with parents is not exactly ideal. As for my brother, he's autistic. So I can't exactly turn to him cause he wouldn't be able to relate to me as how most siblings do with each other which can be awfully lonely. He doesn't annoy me, I don't annoy him. We are in separate "peaceful" worlds. Our worlds might be chaotic and gloomy but he wouldn't realise that his is unless Coke disappeared from the face of the Earth. If that day comes, I'm sure you'll remember that I have a brother. He will be the boy/guy who will cry and wail for Coke till the entire whole knows about it and that's my brother for you. At the end of the day, I still ask myself: What can I do without them? 3. Relatives. This group of peeps are usually my weekend companions (not all of them are). I'm not talking about my cousins only. Aunts and uncles included of course. We are connected by blood only/and by church I suppose? However, at present it seems that water is as thick as blood or maybe thicker. They change, we change and everyone changes. There are times where emotions may get really nasty or there's some strain due to having hardly anything in common. Of course spiteful words that cuts the soul like a sharpened blade. Then again, they're family as well. The only question is... when they turn into strangers from loved ones, can they turn themselves back? 4. Love life? Okay, this would be a sensitive and highly personal topic to touch but apparently it is on my list of concerns. Frankly speaking, this issue is a complete mystery to me. There are times I feel that I've moved on and there are times that I feel that I haven't. There are times that I make both a foolish and wise decisions and there are times I don't. So where exactly am I? Which time am I living in? Obviously, the present. The present = stuck. So therefore, I'm assured that it's pointless to care about this area in my life ever again and leave it to be a mystery that no one (even myself) can solve. This realistically concludes that I have no intention of marrying and might turn to adoption instead. Then again, is this what I'll say ten years down the road? 5. Church. Well this is part of my social life so I suppose that it affects me as well. Both spiritually and emotionally of course. Spiritual walk with THE BIG ONE is fine for now. So I guess it boils down to the people. Let's see what I can say. I'm grateful for many who believe in me more than most people would and to see me as a great companion and friend and who would do the same for me. However, I think there are many of us who ought to follow what we listen to and what we tell others (including myself at times). To not judge by the outer or be prejudice to those who may be a misfit is what I would advice. Don't be impressed by popularity but personality. Yet, do I actually follow these rules myself? 6. Future. There's so many things to think about for the future till the list is never ending. Financial issues. Important aspirations and goals to achieve. The person who I'll grow up to be. The stress. The new people. Studies. Abilities and talents. Competition for jobs. Bills and payments. Responsibilities. The ugliness of human nature. Where do I go from here, from the present? Which piece to play on the chess board? Which move to make? Which choice? 7. Past. Happy memories, disappointing memories. Smiles and frowns. The mistakes. The innocence. The path that I've walked but have not completed. Turning back, I've grown much. If so, why do I want to turn back time when what is done is done? Then I continue to ask myself: "But is what is done is done ever enough?" 8. Myself. To think about the people in my life and to think of myself about thinking about them and me is rather unsettling. Unlike most teenagers, I seem to ponder about these topics much more than they do. I'm starting to think that I'm not normal by doing so. Is it me or is it them? Teenagers don't seem to express themselves in this manner. Most would probably blog about a cool song or a day at school with friends or their emotions with plenty of vulgarities etc. I used to be like that but now I've stopped I suppose? Why? What changed my concerns in life? Why do I care more about the way I live more than clothes or music? Why do I seem so different? Why me? |
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